Today sucked. I didn't think I was such a jealous type until I went to the park today with Carlos. Md was there. She's his friend. He saw her and said that he had to tell her hi. I didn't have a problem with it at all, but then she didn't even look at me. She gave him a hug and no way you just had to hear the way she was talking to him. I mean a flirtatious way. I was annoyed. We left to a different sport and I felt upset because I remembered that he use to like her alot. He asked so I told him. We didn't really argue. I was quiet because I didn't know what to say. I was upset over the situation and the fact that Carlos said nothing of the way she was with him infront of me. He lied and said her boyfriend was playing basketball there. Later he said he was lying about that...she doesn't have one.

I shrugged it off and thought that I just wanted to go home so I could get comfortable again and not feel like I was a bitch for feeling bad. So we were leaving, but Carlos said he was giong to tell Md bye. I figured that was more reasonable to get upset over since she was way on the other side and we just got done kind of fighting over her. I just kept walking straight. I wasn't going to go, but he left me so I followed behind and this time she didn't go for a hug, but he hugged her and told her bye. It just bothered me knowing if it was a guy it'd be different and that we just got done talking about it. It felt like he was craving for that hug in that situation. I felt sad. I tried to fight the jealousy off and being upset that he just went back for more. Yuck...what a bad feeling. All the girls are like that with him though. I was one of them...